Hello, Readers!
Before I share the important part of this blog, I would love to share the current obsession of mine with the melody and the mixed used of instruments from one new song. Completely, I would like to skip the lyrics part for this song. The title of the song is GROWING PAINS from the members of Super Junior, Lee Dong Hae and Eunhyuk. The song (itself) is quite catchy due to mixed sound of guitar and other instruments. Furthermore, I also love the beat of the songs completely since it's fast without being too fast. [Note: The term of beats is not related to the sound of instrument, but it's related to the sound of my heartbeat.]
About the vocal, Lee Dong Hae sounds as cool as usual. Meanwhile, the rapping skills of Eunhyuk has been improved a lot. Love hearing his rapping skills from the previous song of Super Junior -- titled Mamacita. Eunhyuk is able to produce such soft vocal while singing 'This is Love'. For that reason, I do love his vocal and he remain the most favorite vocalist from the group. He is being picked due to his extreme growth from the past few years. It shall be changed if someone shall do better than him.
Related to the song title, it had made me to decide for linking the music video with one quote obtained (or given) through the internet. That quote has made to realize about the path that I shall take as a person. As stated on my heart, I do adore the life of one Catholic saint. Her name is St. Theresia. She decided to live with struggles as act of her 'heart' for taking pain of disciplinary in life. When she was young, she trained herself to control her anger. Once she is angry, she shall go to the garden and pick small stones to be collected on daily basis. She learned to reduce the number of stones being picked.
For being such a radical person since she was young, I decided to pick the same kind of life like her. It shall be really painful, but I shall not regret too deep. My decision shall not hurt the ones that I love and trust so badly. Those people are my parents, my brother and his family, and some close friends. I know that it might be ridiculous. However, I couldn't make any decision that shall hurt them more than I could hurt myself. Simply like speaking with loud tones, hurting them (or seeing them being hurt) is the most painful memory of mine. If I could do all elements of my burning fire, my time shall never be enough.
I could only feed one passion on one time. Related to the fact, I work and live as an accountant that might be too further from the real passion of mine. However, I feel so blessed that my life is complete here. I could be express myself freely -- whenever I go and do everyday. I could see the sun and grab its beauties on one second. I could walk on pedestrian with happiness (without thinking of being followed). I could do all the things that some 'famous' people couldn't do that freely. It's even hard for them to go somewhere without thinking about being followed. Fear of being followed by paparazzi, reporters and fans -- including some 'crazy' fans.
Actually, I haven't had a dream to be on-screen. I would love to work behind the screen, not being famous with the attention of wanting it. If I have to be on-screen, it's simply because of my knowledge and my own personal efforts. I know that it shall not be easy to get there -- completing all of my burning fire. All the major elements of my burning fire is music, painting, poem, photography and others. Furthermore, I do know that some of my readers might disagree with my current decision. However, this is my decision for staying here throughout certain period of time. I don't know for how long that I shall stay. I had decided for doing that without thinking too deep.
If I could be a singer, I shall take a part in a small choir or have a duet with someone else. Recorded or not recorded. If I could dance, I shall dance with the sun while running. If I could be a photographer for a second, I shall go out and take my phone for taking a fast-shoot. I don't want to describe further about the depth of my love for that personal section. I do love all of them, but I also know that I couldn't feed them all now. I also realized that this condition might remain forever. Unchanged, but this is the decision of pain and love that I have to take for a while.
Love is about being real with the reality.
Not dreaming too far. Not thinking too far.
More than that. I assume it.
Insane. Stupid. Surrealism.
(Cindy Tanubrata, 09/03/2015)
Best regards,
Cindy Tanubrata (28/02/2015)
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